My Nemesis

It was August 2009 a sunny but windy day,which saw my boss come down onto the factory floor and ask me to do him a favour, there was this guy coming over for the printers job, i was to interview him and if i thought he was capable i was to hire him.
As the time of his arrival approached the sky turned gray, 2 pm arrived and out of a ford falcon wagon stepped Lou, he was dressed impecably for a job interview and he looked harmless enough, in the interview he was amicable, social and friendly, he knew his printing and seemed like an awesome person to work with, so i hired him.....DUPED!


So, Monday morning came and he arrived for work, i trained him on the machine but he didnt need much training, he picked it up rather fast, so the next week he went on afternoon shift, his shift......
His starting time was 2:30pm so at 2pm he came in early, so he could have lunch before work, he was sitting in the eating area so i went in there to get a can of coke,  i walk in and nod hello while getting a coke "WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? CANT YOU SEE IM EATING? FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!"
I thought something bad must have happened, so i quietly left and went back to the press, at 2:30 he came to the machine, smile on his face like as if nothing had happened...so i did the change over with him and i went home.....
The next day i found drawings of me, insults on the change over book, questioning the way i operate the machine, so i fired straight back, so over the next few weeks we had run ins, yelling matches, accusations etc....
The last argument ended in him putting his car keys between his fingers (like wolverine from xmen) and throwing punches at me, well none landed and i pinned him down on the floor, and he stopped, a co-worker saw him, and he got a stern talking to, well after a few more weeks of his bad temper and schizophrenic behaviour he was sacked..... my nemesis was gone...


Well...fast forward to October 2010 we desperately need another printer, no one has approached except someone called LOU! 
the boss and i looked at each other, laughed and threw his resume in the bin..... well need turned to desperation so the big boss had no choice but to hire him!
HE IS BACK, MY FKN NEMESIS STARTS WORK NEXT MONDAY!


I dont know what will happen this time, i will warn him that at the first sign of trouble i will not  back down and if he ever takes a swing at me i wont just pin him down, lets just say i am sharpening my keys as we speak..............


All i can say now is....BRING IT ON!

Day 16 -> Someone or something you definitely could live without

One thing i could definitely live without is worry... i worry about everything, i worry about my kids, my partner my family my tweeter friends my money situation, my job, co workers every damn thing, when im at work and i know the kids r going somewhere i worry that they will be safe, so i ring home every day to see how they all are, i dont see my daughters every day so i text message them often to check on them, i text mum daily and i keep in touch with sis on fb and twitter.
I worry about money every single day i look at my wages, after i pay bills and worry that i wont have enough to buy xmas presents, then i worry that i will never be able to afford a house and i get depressed.
I worry about my olds health, mum and her pains and dad with his smoking, i worry about my sister in melbourne and all her ailments.
I worry about my co workers and how we are working our asses off and we are not appreciated, i worry about the company and what would happen if we lost customers etc.
I worry about my newfound tweeter friends, one who was sad about nuptials, well with my tweeter friends its not so much worry but just wonder if they are well.
So as you can see i could definitely do with less worry but i dont think il ever change... so i wont worry about it.... ;)

Day 15 -> Someone or something you couldnt live without because youve tried living without it

Hmmmm the someone was my 2 girls, i didnt want to live without them but it was forced upon me, after my wife decided to leave me, i tried to live my life normally, but the pain was too much, we both lived locally so i would see them often on the street, shops etc... 1 day i cracked and i quit my job of 17 years, and i moved to another state, i moved to queensland, i loved my life there, beach every day, perfect weather, amazing friends... it was heaven...but i was lonely... i didnt have my family and i didnt have my girls.... i thought i could survive on flying down to see them once a month but i couldnt..so i spent a year or so there and then i came back... and my life was full again.... 




Herre i am, Bullfrog the Warrior Night Elf and Beeferino the Tauren Hunter.

The something is my online game World of Warcraft, i have been playing it for almost 5 years and i have made great friendships in game, firstly my partner, brother and 3 cousins used to play it so we would all log on at the same time they would play for an hour or so, i would go for days, then one by one they started to play less, i kept going, now my brother doesnt play, my mrs doesnt play my 2 cousins dont play and my one cousin that plays plays every now and then, im stil going, due to the kids i dont play as much as i used to but im stil in there, i talk to my online friends, i dont my swords and we battle its fun, i love socialising, i absolutely adore being able to log into somewhere and talking and having fun with complete strangers and forging great friendships.... kind of like tweeter really, but with really big swords!


Regards Marcelo AKA Bullfrog AKA Beeferino

Day 14 -> A hero that has let you down

very very short, my Dad is my hero and he has never ever let me down! 


That is all.

Day 13 -> A band or artist that has gotten you through some difficult days

No matter what happens to me, good, bad ,theres only one band which i have listened to, The Blues Brothers, wether its after finishing high school or after the ex wife left me, i have always gone back to the blues brothers, Jake and Elwood Blues always seem to make me happy when im (yes you guessed it) Blue, Soul man was blaring out of my walkman when i left school, on my first day at Leigh Mardon as an apprentice printer i think "shake a tailfeather" was on, the morning when my ex wife left me i blared "do you love me" in the car. 
I dont know why they seem to always accompany me when im down or when im happy but they are my band, sux that Mr Belushi died so long ago, but he is always around me in one way or another with his pal Mr Aykroid....... Jake and Elwood Blues....THE BLUUUUES BROTHERSSSS! 

Day 12 -> Something you never get compliments on

This is a hard one again!, in my eyes, if no one compliments you on something you think you should be complimented on, then obviously you dont do it well enough.
Thus since i have told you all what i get complimented on the most, i believe that i have to do everything better, i need to be a better partner, a better father, better son,brother,cousin and nephew a better friend.... i must work harder, i must dress better etc etc, as you can see, i have to do so many things better, then maybe when i succeed people will give me more compliments.... as it is i am happy to get any compliment, and if i dont, im happy too, because itl make me try and become a better human being, and if i can be the best i can be in my eyes, then maybe more compliments will come my way, and if they dont thats ok too....
oh maybe they can compliment me on my modesty.....thats if im modest enough ;)


Adios.

Day 11 -> Something people seem to compliment you the most on

This is a weird one, i hate myself but ppl reckon im a good person to know, meh what the heck do they know right?
I have been complimented on my sense of humor, i like to make ppl laugh and ppl like that about me, or so they say.
Ive also been complimented on how they like it that i care about them, that im always making sure they are alright etc...
But what i always get compliments on are my calves lol yes the back of my legs, for some reason they like them....dont know why but they do.....


Thats it, i dont like writing about compliments because i dont know wether ppl compliment me out of niceness or its true, whatever it is, thats what ppl have said they like about me, id rather ppl told me what they like about me than me write about it, so maybe this blog should be written by others....anyhow.
That is all


Marc.

Day 10 -> Someone you need to let go of or wish you didnt know

There is only one person i need to let go or wish i didnt know....and thats me. 
The ME who doesnt pay his bills on time,
The ME who leaves things to be done later, than do them now.
The ME who cant sleep and is always tired and sometimes cranky,
The ME who has a damn fat stomach and cant bloody get rid of it,
The ME who cant find time to go to the gym to get rid of his damn big stomach,
The ME who cant afford to buy a house, so his kids can play outside and be happy in a yard,
and last but not least, The ME who hates me so much..........


Thank you.

Day 09 -> Someone you didnt want to let go of but you just drifted apart

This is a simple one now, because very recently i have lost my cousins... i was going to write how i lost all my friends, because we all drifted apart over time, school friends, work friends etc i have no real life friends now, i dont go out to a pub with mates, i dont go out to footy with mates i bowl with friends but thats once a week and when its done we dont communicate, but thats ok because im a homey person, as long as i have my family im happy.
Well my cousins came from Chile a while back and they moved to Sydney we used to hang out a lot, i have 3 cousins, we used to play tennis on weekends, have BBQs have pizzas and games at our houses etc etc, i used to love it because like i said, i love my family.
Well all that ended now, my elder cousin got married and he more or less excommunicated my family, i spoke about him in the "someone who i need to forgive" blog, my second cousin finished his university studies and moved to New Zealand, so hes gone and my third cousin he just doesn't have any contact with us anymore for some reason.... so from having them all around and doing fun things together , they drifted away and now i dont have them anymore... its sad but thats the way life goes.
So il just have my beautiful family, even my sister from melbourne who bloody lives TOO FAR AWAY, and my tweeter friends. i appreciate you all and thank you for talking to me.

Day 08 -> Someone who made your life hell

Ummmmm this will be very short and to the point....
No One.


farewell :)

Day 07 -> Someone who has made your life worth living

I have he most wonderful family anybody could ever wish for, mum dad my brother and sisters are my life,  also i have a wonderful partner who loves me and who i love very much, and there is my 4 babies. my Cynthia my Monique my Blake and my Kaine.
These are the someones who make my life worth living, would i give up my life for any of them yes! would i be the same i am now if any of them left me? no, my life is full of someones who make it worth living. 
That makes me the luckiest man alive

Day 06 -> Something you hope you never have to do

Another easy entry.... i hope i never have to see my kids in pain, suffering, i hope i never have to see them in any danger, also my family... i am very protective and i dont know what i would do if i ever had to see them suffer, lets say one of them has a heart problem... i hope i never see that, i know for a fact that if any of my kids needed an organ id be the first to put my hand up to give it to them..."Sir you cant give that organ, you would die" then so be it. 
I hope i never have to give my life to save theirs...but if i had to i would, at the drop of a hat... wouldn't have to ask me twice.... thats what a father does, when they were born i swore to them that id always be there to protect them... so far so good.... God willing itl always be good.


The end.......

Day 05 -> Something you hope to do in your life

Something i hope to do, well this is an easy one, i hope one day i can buy a house, i am so sick of renting and of having my poor kids live within 4 walls in the appartment, at the moment i cant afford it because of child support but hopefuly one day i will. 
another thing id like to do but probably will never do is go to the USA, id love to stay there for a month and just experience it, the lifestyle the cities the cheese in a can.....mmmmmm anyhow this entry was an easy one so i bid you farewell...

Marc.

Day 04 -> Something you have to forgive someone for

Hmmmm this is a hard one... no one has ever done anything to me that i have not forgiven... the only thing anyone would have to do to me would be to hurt my kids, family for me not to forgive..and no one has done that.... so this is very hard...


i could still be upset with the ex wife.... but im not, i have forgiven her... had she not done what she did, i wouldn't have my 2 boys.
I could still be upset with my ex best friend who took my wife...but see above.


I could still be upset with another ex best friend called Gabe, but had he not done what he did, i would still be trusting and giving with friends (im trusting and giving with family, but with friends i am not ) he was unemployed and i had a very good job, i had a lot of $$$ so id pay his rent, his bowling, whenever wed go out id shout him because he had nothing...one day the opposite happened, he fell into 40k and i had debt collectors after me, i asked him for 500, he lent them to me, but the next week he phoned me and abused me and demanded his money, he said hed break my kneecaps, i challenged him we had a huge fight, and we parted ways. Money cost me a friend, so now i do not lend friends money ever.... but i forgave him a long time ago.


I could be mad with my cousin, he got married and he dissed my family and now doesn't talk to them at all, my parents took him in when he just arrived here, looked after him, fed him, etc etc then he got married, and he listened to his wife and now he doesn't talk to the family at all, not my family not his parents, i forgave him because i did the same thing (i listened to my then wife, and screwed up), one day he will need us, whether i help him or not is up for debate (i probably will he is family after all) but i forgave him.


as you can see, im pretty forgiving.... so really there isn't much to write on this topic.... no one has done the "unforgivable" to me yet, and i hope no one ever does.


farewell :)

Day 03 -> Something you have to forgive yourself for

When i was single, my parents and i bought a house, they gave me the 10,000 dollars for the deposit, and i got the house loan, we all lived there and we loved it.... then i met my ex wife and got married....we rented ourselves an apartment and we tried to rent, but with mortgage and rent on 1 income it failed, so she started to nag, "i want to live in your house", "i want us to be our own family", "we should be living in your house".
Well me being the moron i am agreed and told mum and dad about us living there by ourselves and they moved out.... we were ok for a month or two, but then work decided to go on strike for a month which set me back on my mortgage repayments, which i could never catch up on eventually i sold the house.
My parents rented for a while and 2 years ago with my dad's redundancy money bought their own house, and my marriage fell apart and now i rent.
The thing i have to forgive myself for is for agreeing to go live by ourselves and kick my parents out, i should have never listened to the nagging, i should have been strong and not done it, but i was freshly married wanted to make her happy etc etc etc....had i not been a fool, the house would have been paid for and dad would have used his redundancy money for other stuff, i would have a house in my name all paid for so if i wanted to buy another i could have... but no. i was an idiot and screwed everything up.
I don't think i will ever forgive myself for that. i know i have to but i wont.
I made a dumb decision, it was WHACK! and i should not have done it.


Thats day 3 done..... 

The book i wrote for my kids

this is a very basic book i wrote for my kids, its more or less what happens at home, each sentence will one day go with a pic or drawing by the way "Battle for Hoth" is my son's favourite game on the Ipad.

Blake is 4 and Kaine is 2

THE BOYS

There is this boy,
Blake is his name
he loves Mummy's Ipad
he says "Thats my Game!"

Kaine is his brother
his next of kin
he also plays the Ipad
til Blake snatches it from him.

They are very good boys
they count 1-2-3
they make a big mess,
Dad will clean it, you see.

They like to watch "Star Wars"
and yell things out loud
they pull out the Lego
and spread it about.

Everything goes well
until the moon appears,
they hate it when Mummy
says "its bed time my dears"

So away goes the Lego
and the "Battle for Hoth"
and on go new nappies
and PJs for both.

A book for Blake
a bottle for Kaine
"Lets all go to bed daddy
or il be a pain"

They read all the books
and there is no doubt
in about ten minutes
they will both be "out".

So now they both sleep
young Blake and young Kaine,
til you hear in the morning
"MUM WHERES MY GAMEEE!?"

THE END!.

Day 02 -> Something you love about yourself

Ok this is a hard 1.... 
How do you write about something you love about yourself when you dont... lets see if i can come up with something...... 
I guess i love the fact that i make my friends laugh, also that if anybody has a problem i can listen and give advice, that i have been blessed with the best family anybody could have, and with absolutely amazing friends, twitter friends especially (i have 2 real life friends who i bowl with and 1 another who lives in another state thats it) i also love the fact that in an emergency i seem to not panic and come to the fore, when the 1985 earthquake struck Chile, mum and my brother were with me and i remember mum starting to panic but i calmed her down and remained calm through it all, i was 14 at the time.
I guess thats about all i really like about myself, i dont think im good enough to write more because i just dont feel it. friends and family might see more of me to like, but i dont.....


so i guess, thats day 2 of the blog done.... feel free to comment 
Good day :)

Day 01 -> Something you hate about yourself

Hmmmm something i hate about myself.... is there enough space on this?
Lets see... physically i hate the way i look, i have a gut, i hate it, i dont drink nor eat like a pig yet...its there, my calves are muscly, i have broad shoulders, my body is stocky but muscly....YET theres that damn gut... i cant get rid of it....and i HATE IT...
I hate that im short  sometimes, im 5 foot 8 and i generally dont mind it but sometimes i wish i was taller.


Now what else i hate about myself, i hate the fact that i am very laid back, i am trusting, i have 100 bucks, id buy you something, and id buy myself nothing, i worry about ppl, i am protective, i dont let things get to me, if theres a sink full of dishes at 5pm i wont wash them until after dinner so i do one load, whereas most ppl i know will wash the breakfast load, the lunch load and anything in between, i am not punctual, because im carefree to the point of not giving a shit about ANYTHING... when ppl insult me i dont get angry i just dont care, if someone cuts me off il mumble to myself but 2 secs later im over it. 
Some ppl might think thats not that bad, why hate yourself for being that way well... ppl mistake my carefree demeanor as being lazy... "you are lazy you didnt make the bed 5 seconds after you got up!"
in reality i was going to make it after i shower, have breakfast and read the paper, WHY does it have to be made before your feet touch the floor?????
Also my trusting was a part of my marriage ending... i trusted my ex wife and well i wont go into that but it involves my ex best friend and sex in my house while i worked....
i worry and am protective to the point of not sleeping thinking how ppl are, you could live in the states and we could have never ever met, but if u tell me something is wrong il worry until you tell me all is well.... sux.. i am always thinking and hoping all is well...


the last thing i hate about myself is that im HOPELESS with money. i spend it on ppl before anything, my carefree demeanor meant that if a bill was due, i would "pay it later" and i'd forget.
Now because of the divorce and child support i cant afford to buy a house, so when i see my poor kids surrounded by 4 walls in the appartment, it breaks my heart and i feel like a failure of a father..... then my deppression starts....


Anyhow that is what i HATE about myself.........